This is it....

For those of you who don't know...my dream is to be a cop. YES!!! A gun carrying uniformed officer. No, it has nothing to do with the power, though being a southern chick I dig guns. (Used the right way)
I grew up in a home where there was always drama, and the police often had to be called. I remember looking out my door, and thinking to myself "it isn't her fault" but they always made it to be that way.
I knew from a young age that I wanted to be that person that people could count on, the one that would make kids feel safe, wives empowered, husbands respected...I just wanted to serve God by serving people!
So today I did it...I made that payment to take my test. I have put it off for 7 years out of fear. I was shaking while I was typing in my credit card number, the tears were welling up in my eyes, I could feel my heart pounding, and I knew it was the devil saying "CRAP! NOW WHAT AM I GOING TO DO, I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HOLD HER BACK FOR SO LONG!"
I know being away from my kids is going to kill me, but IF I'm going to be the mom that tells her kids to chase their dreams, then I need to do the same.
I just want to ask all of you to pray for me, I know that God has put this drive and dream in my heart for a reason.