The New Year...

I am starting my New Years resolutions early...

I know every year some people make up this "crap" or "goals" to make themselves feel better about the year to come, and I'm not different.

This year I have decided to focus on me!?! YES, I know it sounds extremely selfish, but the truth of the matter is; I feel like through the years I have lost all of the things I loved about me, and in doing so I have short changed the people I love most in my life. 

So! This year...I am not going to focus on the things I want and don't have. This year will be about my children, my marriage, and MY passions.

So here is a mini bio about me I guess you could say.

I married the man I chased for 7 years...yes! it took me 7 years...HAHA. Now I have two fantastic children, a hottie of a husband, and the most amazing small group of friends...that deal with my spaz caseness and forgive me even when I am in the wrong.

I am not disillusioned...I know I don't have it all together, but I sure am trying my best to figure it all out before it's to late. Although there are times it seems that life is getting a little more crazy then I can handle; it is at those times I have learned...it's time to hit your knees and NOT to get up until God tells you to...no matter how long you are there!!! 

I still strive to find the good in every person, every day in every situation....even when I don't want to.

I live my life as a mom extraordinaire, a wife, the runner of the house hold, I'm a counselor, a ref, a dreamer, a chef, and a taxi driver.

Someone once said...I was as loyal as a dog....but in a good way, whatever that means. It's true though I am loyal, but I have discovered that it is my loyalty that gives me the most amount of pain, but also bring me the most joy.

Things that I love: God...and His consent steady devotion, even when I am not, I love to laugh until my face hurts, I love seeing my kids discovering new things, I love it when Tony breaths on my neck, I would be lost without my drive to change the world for the better. I love music and how every moment of everyday has it's own soundtrack, holding hands, surprises, my dogs, throwing a football, deep conversation, pizza, the lake, flip flops, coffee, kissing Tony, naps. I love my few friends that have seen me at my weakest, but still love me anyways.

The things I closetly love: Big jewelry, beautiful perfume, pictures, sticky notes that have sweet messages on them, ice cold sweet tea, milk with ice in it, fast food burgers, and sand under my feet, walking through squishy mud, the sound a new born makes when they sneeze, lip gloss, Malibu rum and tequila, dancing until I can't stand up, the way it feels when Tony wraps his arms around me when I'm already sleeping, opening my eyes to see our children in our bed, white chocolate chip macadamia nut cookies. And believe it or not I love complements and thank you's.

Things that I hate: People that settle because they don't believe they are worth more (I am so bad for that), lies, people that play with the minds and hearts of others, waking from bad dreams, sounds I can't explain...and yes! I am terrified of the dark. I hate when I have put my trust into something or someone just to only lose it in a moment. But Most of all I hate that some of us have to learn things the hard way and unshowingly live with the pain for a lifetime.